..... .... ... .. . mimi

confused?

well yeah u seem confused. but talk to him girl. express everything. well u dun nid to mention it. u're my bestfriend. why would i ever want to see u sad. smile aite... =)

u called.well sorry about yeastaday,about my phone batt dying in the middle of our conversation.well i was at work and there's no charger.stupid samsung phone!so i'm going to charge my phone and bring my charger along with me no matter where i go.

well sometimes its weird,sometimes its fun,sometimes it feels wonderfull,sometime it feels totaly wrong...well u started to talk to me everyday... trying to ask me to meet u everytime u see that theres a chance to...
& todays conversation got my attention...
well im just confused...
so here it goes...

her: smlm saya nak kol away,i was around @ ya workplace,but i realize that ur hp batt mati uh...
him: awak kat sini buat apa?
her: kan izam kena hanter benda2 there also,ingat nak jumpe awak...
him: huh?no i wont meet u uh.. (da buang tebiat ke dia nak jumpe aku bila dia dgn izam)
her: asal pulak taknak jumpe uh...
him: i dont wanna meet u when u are with him...
her: asal pulak? tell me...
him: i just wont meet u when u are with him...
her: TELL ME WHY?!
him: nothing,just dont want to...
her: TELL ME!!!
him: just dont want to lah awak...
her: that means that u wont come to my wedding?
him: tu mesti la datang,orang kan da jemput, as a form of respect i'll come and eat,congratulate u & go lah...
her: den when can i meet u? lagi 2 tahun? 4 tahun?
him:~silence(apa sampai 4 tahun semua...)
her: just tell me why u dont wanna meet me when im with him?
him: takda pape uh,just dont want to, its like why izam dun want to meet u with me gitu...
her: mimi,dun make me cry...
him:~silence...
& her voice starts to sound sad....
him: hey u crying? why are u crying??
her: takda pape lah...
him: tell me why la...
her: nothing,really...
him: ye bagus la tu, saya ckp takda pape, awak pun ckp takda pape...sama lah kita dua nie...
her: tau pun, just tell me why u aje boleh?
him: erm,uh...just that...i dun noe how to explain...
her: coz u feel hurt when u see me with him...
him: argh! awak da tau kenapa nak tanye saya lagi?
her: coz i wanted u to say it to me,mimi!
him: well ok,i'll say it! IT HURTS TO SEE U WITH HIM! THATS Y I DONT WANNA MEET U...
her: see wats so hard about that...
him: da lah lets talk about something else....
& so after that conversation she started laughing again... =) its how amazing how i managed to make her smile eventhou she was on the verge of crying...
as long as she is smiling and having a good time,im fine with that...
yeah she's dying to meet me,wants to buka with me...one day aite,when we have a chance aite...

it confusing,well look at how she treats me... i even dont noe why im stil here enjoying myself wit her... its wrong uh,bt i still luv her words...she appreciates me,everything that i did for her, i wasnt expecting anything but she just...haiz,i dont noe uh....

it took nearly 2 years for her to forgive me,it looks like i was too late,but it looks as thou something really wrong is going to happen. its really wrong but somehow i feel that i want it...

im confused...

**i still remembered that day when u were just starring at me,when i realized it,u turned away and just kept quiet. i managed to see those eyes,those eyes which were trying to tell me something. i tried to deny it,but as time goes by,it seems tat ur eyes were telling me the truth...

Wednesday, September 24, 2008 // 11:22 PM